- fucking annoying -
You know you're my only one.
tho we're only been in relationship like what? 2 weeks?
buuuutt youu knoowww iii laaaiiikeeeee youuu siiinncceeee whhheeeennnnnnnnnnnn and
there's no word to describe how grateful I am to have you by my side.
Despite of my flaws and all those shits I've done,
you still encourage me to change my self to be a better person.
and I WILL be a better person.
i'm sorry if i'm not the best for you,
coz i know that i'm not beautiful as the others, my thighs big as you can see, i'm boyish,
i really don't know how to love someone, and you know my mistakes that i've done in the past, but let bygones be bygones.
i'm really sorry if I've done something that make you hurt or make you feel annoying or boring.
when we meet, you knoww maybe i'm a lil bit quiet or laugh a lot that is because..
i'm quite shy actually when you're around.
i don't know what we should talk, i just want to stare at your face
and hear you laugh your voice when you're telling me things or stories, and smile, I KNOW IT'S NOT LOGICAL to stare at your face ALL THE TIME,
but you understannddd xD hahahaa
and that is because i know that i will never met anyone else like you. :)
i know "I love you, is not enough"
but there's no other words that i can say better than that,
I really love you and I never want to lose you.I meant every word that I say m.hanif. :')
AGAIN, I'M REALLLLYY SORRY IF I AM A BORING PERSON ! :'3
My heart’s a stereo,It beats for you, so listen close,Hear my thoughts in every note
and and, i'm scared/shy to tell you directly, so I just write this here.. sorry again .___.
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Sunday, June 19, 2011
baby :)
- fucking annoying -
thanks for yesterday and the gift,I really didnt expect that.
i am missing you already when you went back home although we've already spending the time together for quite a moment there. :')
and yesterday was really awesome and it is one of the best memories i've ever had x)
hope to see you soon love <3
Iloveyou,Ireallydo <3
thanks for yesterday and the gift,I really didnt expect that.
i am missing you already when you went back home although we've already spending the time together for quite a moment there. :')
and yesterday was really awesome and it is one of the best memories i've ever had x)
hope to see you soon love <3
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| xD one of me mates said that he's christopher drew and im alexia O_O |
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| i tak nak makan boleh? :P |
Iloveyou,Ireallydo <3
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
new attitude needed hmphh :[
- fucking annoying -
just can't let myself keep getting hurt right? so
1. ignore what people do, like if they say something or get mad at me. i'll just pretend to hear,but ignore it at
the same time : |.
2. this face : | <------------ gonna be really helpfulx) : |
just can't let myself keep getting hurt right? so
1. ignore what people do, like if they say something or get mad at me. i'll just pretend to hear,but ignore it at
the same time : |.
2. this face : | <------------ gonna be really helpful
hope? its so 1990's
- fucking annoying -
SELF.
I know I complain too much about my life.
I like to keep things to my self.
I don't like people to know my problems.
I tell the important parts only.
Sometimes, I want to fucking share about my problems, my happiness , whether i am sad or im happy or any feelings that i feel to person that i love and trust. but i can't coz they would not understand. Even if I tried to.
They won't.
They know my name, They know my Stories, but They don't know how i go through it..
i always listen to them even 1%, but i still listen.
but i just can't tell them 100% coz my life is too problematic and hectic to be heard.
how about talk to my mom, oh my sister how about my brother?
damn you,believe me, i tried, they don't understand and i'm tired.
they treat me like i am a fucking naive child.
_____________________________________
LOVE
well the next thing is,
i'm gonna regret the decision that i've made and i will make from the first time.
things aren't will just stay like that. i bet no,
i fall in love once, twice, third and this is not the last time.
i hope he'll find another one who is much more better than me.
coz i know, i flunked in life. i'm a bad person and i deserved no better than a devil.
______________________
STUDIES
well, i flunked in this department too, i suck, i'm too stupid to get my brain to function
spm this year, still am a playful Elle. play much.
worthless for my parent : mom to spend those money to the home tutors.
really suck to be me. I surely want to be dead in my mothers stomach if i know how hectic my life is.
_________________
SELF.
I know I complain too much about my life.
I like to keep things to my self.
I don't like people to know my problems.
I tell the important parts only.
Sometimes, I want to fucking share about my problems, my happiness , whether i am sad or im happy or any feelings that i feel to person that i love and trust. but i can't coz they would not understand. Even if I tried to.
They won't.
They know my name, They know my Stories, but They don't know how i go through it..
i always listen to them even 1%, but i still listen.
but i just can't tell them 100% coz my life is too problematic and hectic to be heard.
how about talk to my mom, oh my sister how about my brother?
damn you,believe me, i tried, they don't understand and i'm tired.
they treat me like i am a fucking naive child.
_____________________________________
LOVE
well the next thing is,
i'm gonna regret the decision that i've made and i will make from the first time.
things aren't will just stay like that. i bet no,
i fall in love once, twice, third and this is not the last time.
i hope he'll find another one who is much more better than me.
coz i know, i flunked in life. i'm a bad person and i deserved no better than a devil.
______________________
STUDIES
well, i flunked in this department too, i suck, i'm too stupid to get my brain to function
spm this year, still am a playful Elle. play much.
worthless for my parent : mom to spend those money to the home tutors.
really suck to be me. I surely want to be dead in my mothers stomach if i know how hectic my life is.
_________________
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Can I have tears in my eyes?
- fucking annoying -
The devil asked herself if what would happen if she knows how to cry, how to has tears in her eyes?
If only she could, she won't be devil.
isn't cry is for the weak? no she can't cry coz
She's a bitch, playing with someone's feelings.
She don't want to be like her once a friend now foe; successful in betraying people and proudly holding the medal of agony.
No, she don't want to be like him. pathetic, thats the word that she thinks.
but whats a devil if there's no evil act?
too love to let go. too scared to be loved, to good to be selfish ; its the opposite.
The devil asked herself if what would happen if she knows how to cry, how to has tears in her eyes?
If only she could, she won't be devil.
isn't cry is for the weak? no she can't cry coz
She's a bitch, playing with someone's feelings.
She don't want to be like her once a friend now foe; successful in betraying people and proudly holding the medal of agony.
No, she don't want to be like him. pathetic, thats the word that she thinks.
but whats a devil if there's no evil act?
too love to let go. too scared to be loved, to good to be selfish ; its the opposite.
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Monday, March 21, 2011
i'm gonna fucking swear in this post.
- fucking annoying -
Hey before I start, let me give you the link to my Tumblr.
I aren't really good in HTML code and customizing the shit, but yeah,believe it or not, I spent for 5 hours editing the html and shit and I tried to make it as nice as I can.
except I couldn't find out how to center align the photos that I've posted at tumblr ==.
Let us begin this hatred.
I fucking hate when some people make pledges but failed to accomplish it.
why you even bother to make it when you know you can't finish it?
I fucking hate when pretty barbies and kens out there tells everyone that I'm a fucking bad influence and talks behind my back to their friends.
When actually the FUCKING TRUTH IS I DONT EVEN TALKED TO THEM. EVEEEEEEEEEER.
I'M IN MY OWN SIMPLE WORLD WITHOUT KNOWING YOU,WHERE YOU FUCKING WHORES OUT THERE TRYING TO GET CLOSE TO ME AND ASK ME TEACH YOU THINGS BUT WHEN I DON'T, THERE YOU GO WITH YOUR FILTHY FACE SULKING.
you make things soooooo much complicated for me.
WHEN YOUR MOMMY WANTS YOU TO TELL WHO IS YOUR FUCKING INFLUENCE YOU TOLD HER : OH, IT'S ELLE MOM. SHE'S THE ONE. and BASED ON MY PICTURES, SHE JUDGED AND DETRACTORS ME, YEAH SHE FUCKING JUDGED ME WITHOUT KNOWING ME IN REAL LIFE?! what the fuckk?
wait what? why are my pictures looking like that? That's in your mind huh?
BECAUSE, IT IS ME. I DON'T TEND TO BE A HYPOCRITE LIKE YOU BITCHES.
I don't pierced because it is so fucking trend right now.
I don't dressed up all hardcore because it is so FUCKING TREND RIGHT NOW.
no I DON'T.
I dressed the way that I dress is because it represents me.
So, get used to it or you can suck my asshole aye mate?
I'm not going to lie about who I am. I DON'T DO HYPOCRISY HERE.
You know what? You are such an appalling bunk ! AND I'M ABSOLUTELY FUCKING LOATH YOU FOR THAT!
This kind of people unequivocally are too blinkered in their view and never thought of others opinion.
I decisively assure you assholes that i'm, not going to jeopardize my dignity for you whores no,
I'm fucking not going to.
I fucking hate when I CAN'T EVEN DEFEND FOR MYSELF , MY FUCKING SELF when I am being mad of something that I DIDN'T DO. BECAUSE YOU WON'T LET ME!
YES MY LADY YES MY QUEEN YES MY KING YES MY EVERYTHING YES MY FUCKING FUCKER
that's how you want me to address you? voila ! you want it?
Hey before I start, let me give you the link to my Tumblr.
I aren't really good in HTML code and customizing the shit, but yeah,believe it or not, I spent for 5 hours editing the html and shit and I tried to make it as nice as I can.
except I couldn't find out how to center align the photos that I've posted at tumblr ==.
Let us begin this hatred.
I fucking hate when some people make pledges but failed to accomplish it.
why you even bother to make it when you know you can't finish it?
I fucking hate when pretty barbies and kens out there tells everyone that I'm a fucking bad influence and talks behind my back to their friends.
When actually the FUCKING TRUTH IS I DONT EVEN TALKED TO THEM. EVEEEEEEEEEER.
I'M IN MY OWN SIMPLE WORLD WITHOUT KNOWING YOU,WHERE YOU FUCKING WHORES OUT THERE TRYING TO GET CLOSE TO ME AND ASK ME TEACH YOU THINGS BUT WHEN I DON'T, THERE YOU GO WITH YOUR FILTHY FACE SULKING.
you make things soooooo much complicated for me.
WHEN YOUR MOMMY WANTS YOU TO TELL WHO IS YOUR FUCKING INFLUENCE YOU TOLD HER : OH, IT'S ELLE MOM. SHE'S THE ONE. and BASED ON MY PICTURES, SHE JUDGED AND DETRACTORS ME, YEAH SHE FUCKING JUDGED ME WITHOUT KNOWING ME IN REAL LIFE?! what the fuckk?
wait what? why are my pictures looking like that? That's in your mind huh?
BECAUSE, IT IS ME. I DON'T TEND TO BE A HYPOCRITE LIKE YOU BITCHES.
I don't pierced because it is so fucking trend right now.
I don't dressed up all hardcore because it is so FUCKING TREND RIGHT NOW.
no I DON'T.
I dressed the way that I dress is because it represents me.
So, get used to it or you can suck my asshole aye mate?
I'm not going to lie about who I am. I DON'T DO HYPOCRISY HERE.
You know what? You are such an appalling bunk ! AND I'M ABSOLUTELY FUCKING LOATH YOU FOR THAT!
This kind of people unequivocally are too blinkered in their view and never thought of others opinion.
I decisively assure you assholes that i'm, not going to jeopardize my dignity for you whores no,
I'm fucking not going to.
I fucking hate when I CAN'T EVEN DEFEND FOR MYSELF , MY FUCKING SELF when I am being mad of something that I DIDN'T DO. BECAUSE YOU WON'T LET ME!
YES MY LADY YES MY QUEEN YES MY KING YES MY EVERYTHING YES MY FUCKING FUCKER
that's how you want me to address you? voila ! you want it?
KISS . MY . ASS
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Love, Lust and Lost.
- fucking annoying -
Someone whom you enshrine,
mocking you.
Someone whom you loathe,
actually yearning for your love.
Someone whom you rate as "the friend",
renegade you.
Someone whom you thought foe,
concerned about you.
In this pathetic world,
there's no love without lust.
that's why it is called pathetic. Sympathy love. Cheap love . Just name it .
Where there's no single humankind considered to actually Love the Love.
there's no world of vengeance
if you hadn't lost your way in searching the truth of life.
you lost and you loose.
Judas will be your god in the meanest way you can imagine,
tough you,yourself never come across about it,but, he will, if you keep on betraying.
Someone whom you enshrine,
mocking you.
Someone whom you loathe,
actually yearning for your love.
Someone whom you rate as "the friend",
renegade you.
Someone whom you thought foe,
concerned about you.
In this pathetic world,
there's no love without lust.
that's why it is called pathetic. Sympathy love. Cheap love . Just name it .
Where there's no single humankind considered to actually Love the Love.
there's no world of vengeance
if you hadn't lost your way in searching the truth of life.
you lost and you loose.
Judas will be your god in the meanest way you can imagine,
tough you,yourself never come across about it,but, he will, if you keep on betraying.
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
hey, read.
- fucking annoying -
a love often sad, weak and tired but sometimes happy and strong..I cannot explain why but when I think of you I see you here under these sad trees, because there is something very sad in you..something you never told me..and that creates this big distance between me and you.. the same something that made me to fall in love with you in this life and..who knows maybe also in another past life..because I am sure I have already met you.
a love often sad, weak and tired but sometimes happy and strong..I cannot explain why but when I think of you I see you here under these sad trees, because there is something very sad in you..something you never told me..and that creates this big distance between me and you.. the same something that made me to fall in love with you in this life and..who knows maybe also in another past life..because I am sure I have already met you.
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