Sunday, November 13, 2011

what have I done

- remorseless -

dont even.


coz i'll die of laughter

Yesterday was seriously wicked for me guys. seriously. hahahah xDD
Except you knoww.. to wait for that scumbag for 12 hours.
we're bunch of idiots. devoted to him and all -__-
fuck that shizz manngggg

Friday, November 11, 2011

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

- remorseless -

It took me 1 year to forget about some goddamn guy who
was "in relationship" with me for 1 month. then mind-fucked me.
Pretty intense.results in "cant believe in boys easily" for the whole year.
just certain of em, still can choose who i can trust who i can't trust.
as soon as I give all of em back my trust. shit happened.

How bout 5 months then?
They've lost my trust. forever.
all boys.

Terima kasih :3
better keep it this way. so no more scars.

well, to be honest. i hate myself.
i hate part of me tells me to hate you, another part says i still love you.
how mind fuck is that. haha troll forever.
you have no idea how hurt I am.
i cant trust anyone. not even myself.

Sunday, November 6, 2011


- remorseless -

like you never Died before!
like you never seen this world before!

i seriously motherfuckingly need a punching bag in my room.
like seriously. XD

and we shall celebrate our victory with RED VELVET CUPCAKE BEBEH!

Entitled to be cursed forever.

- remorseless -

Shouldn't accept. Shouldn't listen. Shouldn't trust. 
Shouldn't discover love at the first place.
It's very irony that love could mend a broken heart,
and love also has the power to tear a part.

Momma once told me that love is so heavenly fun.
and all what we do is play and run
Love is where a place that no one recognize any hate.
guess it's just another lie and in the hand of malignant fate.

Misery came once in a while,
thought that it could cause no long-lasting harm..
so I dumbly welcomed it with open arms.
But it does,it is vile and wild.. 
everything is unclear and left only unending tears.
when sight isn't that vivid, forthwith it bestowed scars that hurt like acid.

I thought we were stronger than that.
I was wrong. I fought this battle alone.
I could give up long time ago,
But I didn't because I .. I thought we were stronger than that.

and now, im at the lowest point of my life.
I've failed, I've lost. I've nothing in exchange.

This pleasures of love is only for awhile
and it has to end.
Though I have to go through the crowds with a forced smile
but still, I must make some amend.

no more crying in the middle of the night.
no more 4 hours of mourning.
Coz I know, there will be bright shining light,
waiting for me in the morning.
as long as it may.

I've repeated this for second time.
I though it was all untrue when I found you.
But there was I.. wrong again when i let my heart over mind.
I'm seriously broken.
"I guess it's true that in real world, there's no knight in shining armor.
No prince charming that will hold her hand for just a little while.
I guess no.
There's only backstabbing, anger, lonely and sad.
Conquering every living person in world of mess.
That just a whole load of pain in the ass.
Don't die, just pretend a smile."

and there it go once more, 9 rejected theories ,
perpetuating in the mind of it's very own.
I shall not easily fall again..
either in love or life.

Those who are faithless know the pleasures of love; it is the faithful who know love's tragedies.

Friday, November 4, 2011

Time Travel

- remorseless -

Nothing is real, I know this cause I made a deal.
With the Devil. He told me that i was just wasting my time on the moon.

So I flew to the sun, lost track of my soul on the run
suffering 12 degree burns
I learned that the sun was no fun

So I went back to earth, Tripped and fell in the glorified dirt.

Honestly, gravity sees me as a liability.

So I held my breath, til my soul left my body for dead

I ripped through the clouds, To talk with the man in the sky.

I said " Take this for what it is,, I think you're a tad but prejudice

Against the ones like us that are searching for the answers"

He said " Kid you don't know shit, you should go back home and live

In that quiet little town you left behind"

I'm coming home, Don't you cry ( don't you cry )
I'm coming home, Just in time ( Just in time )

I am a fake A constant go-getter of fate

I lost track of time, I carried my mind on a plate

I seasoned it well, with acid and M.D.M.A.

Then I howled at the moon, Til the sun burnt out both of my eyes.

So I checked my pulse, Standing there white as a ghost.

I lacked a complexion, and stabbed my reflection 12 times

I don't know what I've been told, I will sell my soul to rock and roll

I don't know where to go I have lost control Oh no.

november y u no treat me nicely.

- fucking annoying -


Not so sure

- fucking annoying -

Not so sure if I'm Dalilah or.. I am Elle Xore.
Not so sure what am I unsure about that is for sure.
Not so sure if I am being me because I am me or
I am being me to please other people.

Not so sure.

Wednesday, November 2, 2011


- fucking annoying -

the title's tough.
i am tough.
the day is tough.
everything is tough.'s been a lil weird lately. or. has it been weird since the beginning?
mindfucked tho.