Risau

- fucking annoying -

Risau sangat2.. kawan2 aku ada yang study ada yang tak.
aku pun nak kata study sangat tu tak lah. ikut kemampuan apa yang ada tapi at least aku try.
aku bukan nak bermegah ke apa, tapi bagi aku, biarlah orang pandang kita jahat atau hina mana tapi kita ada ilmu di dada yang boleh menjamin masa depan kita.
boleh buat mak bapak kakak abang adik kita bangga.
dengan sijil tu lah kita boleh mentransformasi diri dan mengubah persepsi orang terhadap kita
risau..
aku risau.

aku yang form 4 tak sekolah ni pun dah pucat lesi muka jantung berdegup tak henti tidur tak lena fikir pasal SPM.
so bagi korang yang bernasib baik boleh pergi sekolah, bersyukur lah okay. strive tak strive lah.
tak kira masalah ape pun bf/gf semua tolak tepi sekejap je pun.
28 hari je lagi.
pastu bebas.

soalan2 berformat SPM korang boleh download dekat sini:
http://www.banksoalanspm.com memang terbaik. dari negeri apa korang cakap lah semua ada.
selagi ada masa.. belajar.. tak tahu tanya cikgu jangan jadi bodoh sombong

last,aku nak mintak maaf dekat kawan2 ataupun sesiapa sahaja yang aku ada buat dosa
tulus ikhlas dari hujung rambut sehingga hujung kaki aku minta maaf.

tak lama lagi dah woi.

perasaan.

- fucking annoying -

hati sangsi. rasa curiga menerpa.
jauh dalam lubuk hati, perasaan yang tidak disedari.
satu persoalan yang tidak terjawab olehnya,
mengapa empunya diri, tidak mengerti?

dia gila. dia gila.
dia berasa gila kerana tak jumpa
di mana kau bersembunyi,
perasaan?

Dimana boleh dia mencari, Perasaan?

melilau mencari, punah harapan. tiada jumpa.
kosong.
gelap.. gelap gelita.
menjerit, mengeluarkan isi hati.
marah,
dengan panorama jelita yang didiami si musibat.


Puas?
Puas?
Hidup dalam kekosongan?
Beban tidak tertanggung..

Dia ingin keluar..
keluar..
bagaimana kau boleh membantu dia, Perasaan?

Words Of Expressions.

- remorseless.phantom -

Strong. Weak. Truth. Lie. Love. Hate.
simple yet complex words.
simple to express, but yet again, all these words,
are they easy to digest when it came out from one's mouth?
what they mean with those words?
There's a saying,
The road to hell is paved with good intentions.

Full of anxiety. Full of mystery. Full of hypocrisy. Full of iniquity.

Strong vs Weak.
Why are you strong?
What benefit can you get if you're strong?
Are you strong enough to not to be the weak?
Are you strong enough to not to be heartbroken?
Are you strong enough to face the future and forget the past?
Are you strong enough to unveiled all the lies that clotting in your head?

Clueless huh.

Trust vs Lie.
Fake amiable creatures,they ask you things.
whether you're okay, whether you're all fine.
But to consider it all again, are they really "asking" you?
Can they freed you from those burden inside your soul with asking?
Eased much after told them your stories huh?
But, are you really confident that they are not using you to create a tale?
and are you sure that they know you inside and out?
not merely know about you?
Trust me, I do understand how they worship on gossips.


It's funny to see how people can change,
how they easily play with "oh so intriguing words" , "oh so soothing words" "oh so selfish words"
to make others feel safe or jealous or angry or happy.


Love. Hate
Exasperated by this "simple" words, I am.
Still lingering in my mind. Indistinguishable uproar thoughts.
Love is absolutely a word that easy to say.pleased to hear.
can we prove it? can we prove we love something or someone with that much of sincerity?
Hate is absolutely a word that can scarred one's heart.
Make them feel very futile indeed.
To say hate is easy, but to mean it?
How can we easily hated a person that once we loved so much?

I don't have enough strength to absorb all this absurdness.
these synonyms and antonyms. ugh as if..
I need tranquility of mind. But how?
I can't just neglect and let it lie cobwebbed.
How can we just ignore the scars that once, bleeding?



We have our weaknesses.
But we still have the chance to mend our weaknesses.
Have faith that we can do better.
Have faith.
Is all I can say. Have faith.

Just put a smile on your face when people let you down.
Not that you've got no feelings.
Not that you never care.
Not that you pretend to be selfish.
Just because you're strong.
You feel lonely?
I get that. I used to feel lonely too. but,
In this world, you'll never know what will happen.
who will be there to contribute, who will be there to lend their arms and let you cry.
who will be there to hug you..
Go and plan, organize,specify, but remember, He who always will decide.
You are your partner. You are your companion
Not that you want to be forever a lone ranger.
Just because you can only trust yourself.

and uh, I don't associate with people who blame the world for their problems.
I'm not entertained with people who look down and say bad things about themselves.
Chin up, coz you are as smart, pretty and amazing as you are.Don't look down on yourself coz people see you that way. We all born to have flaws but dont forget that WE GOT SOMETHING that we're good at. :)

We have to fix it by ourselves.
peace yo.

Bruises may fade, but this twinge remains the same.

- fucking annoying -

Had this huge argument with someone.

I'd rather break my knuckles than punch somebody else's face.

But it would be really nice to actually punch someone's face who've been so fucking annoying.

Unfortunately, it is opposite of legal. but if its not, then voila, you are welcome anytime

to feel my sweet knuckles in your mouth and have your teeth broken in any way you can imagine.

This is how I overcome my anger.

I don't like to be in rage and being rough is not my thing, 

but if I am, even the badass vampire Eric Northman also can't take the bite out of me .

 So seriously, don't make me in that mood. I really want to keep away from this unhealthy attitude.

You respect me, I respect You. Simple.

why? COZ I'm a SWAG.

Life's a tough luck sometimes but oh well, we'll get over it.

Just go with the flow,

No expectations, no disappointments and to one to know is to have interest.

my life quote is simple but nice.

pukimak

- fucking annoying -
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sial lah anjing lah pukimak lah babi lah setan lah cibai la
lan jiao lah anjing lah pukimak lah babi la
sial sial sial sial sial sial sial sial sial sial sial sial sial sial sial
anjing anjing anjing anjing anjing
babi babi babi babi babi pukimakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
siallllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll
sial sial klasjflksanfcmkadbfoiqehfqowherqowrhqo BABI BABIII
PUKIMAK PUKIMAK LAHANAT SIAL ANJING BABI PUKIMAK
LAHANAT taik la sial tahi lanat puki ksdbfkasbfijqgherpiqwetypoweq

Be brightened. PART 1

thou mournful requiem has been sung for hundred of times,

even though the deceased has been kept in a ghoulishly rectangular corpse holder,
thou art as a murderer are still violently beautiful.

___________________________________________________________________

"look at her! " Ictinike said in astonishment,
"such a beautiful waste.." he added.

"Oh your eyes knows how to tricks you, this is the body who consumed evil to stay alive, named Succubus!
don't you know her?!" yelled Lucifer,

"I was in err u bitch, so tell me who was she?" Ictinike asked.

"before the sun rosed, I saw her in the midst of hell,
 torturing parts of an unfortunate lad,
 blood was everywhere,
 this sick cunt slept with the lad's heart in her hand,"  interrupt Belial, who are the infamous demon of lies.

"bravo my brother, for the first time, you did not lie to us, truth has been told Ictinike," Lucifer said.
__________________________________________________________________________________

oh the angel of bottomless pit, here I am,
I beseech thee to take me away,
let me be one of your deceased prey,
before they waylay the sickest pray.

Caraphernelia.

- fucking annoying -

So, I've taken some quizzes in Google. this is what it says. and I added something somehow. cliche huh.
lots of people don't seem to quite understand me. especially people who are very dear to me.
erm..Nope.

This is very me.

Ruthless character, carefully weighing her decisions in critical situations, with excellent self-control
and strong will. Such people are generally liked, but not always loved.
Not always laugh, but always smile.
Can't really be predicted.
I like to hide my real feelings, I like to be seen as the bad one to protect people that I LOVE or CARE.
I like to provoke people.
I must show people how strong I am, mentally and physically. except, I'm not.
I never cry except if there's a death of people that I love, or I found out that my siblings or my parent deceived me.
Gimme bunch of shits, i'll throw it back to ya,
Gimme bunch of bitches, i'll cut their mouth and slit their throat.
My lesson is to combat violence and disharmony in our world.



I love being around people, and I am deeply committed to my friends.
I am also unconventional, irreverent, and unimpressed by authority.
Incredibly perceptive, I can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.
I use lots of colorful language and expressions. I'm quite the storyteller despite that i'm quite a stutter lol!

In love, i am quite the charmer. And I definitely willing to risk my heart.
I often don't follow through with my flirting or professed feelings. I break a lot of hearts.

I just always seem to enjoy what I do.
I would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

How I see myself: compassionate, unselfish, and understanding

When other people don't get me, they see me as: gushy, emotional, and unfocused
I'm quite rebellious, and I don't like being told what to do. I like to do things your way.
I have my own unique style, taste in music, and outlook on life.


My personality type is goofy, imaginative, relaxed, and brilliant.

I am quite Introverted, Intuitive, Thinking, and Perceiving

Ramadhan

Assalamualaikum to all of you guys out there, I know its kinda late to wish Selamat  Berpuasa to you but at least I said it okay? :3


hehe I did this video a day before ramadhan but im one of a lazy biatch so I uploaded it today.I know i look fat. I AM FAT :P and i don't care bout it hohoho
well, as for Muslims, this month is a fasting month for all of yer who've already Baligh.Wajib PUASA tahu tak, kecuali bagi para wanita yang dimana mereka ada flag merah.Sebulan je pun.. apa susah sangat kan?Kita patut hormat bulan puasa okengg? :3 ni je la kot, pagipai nanti baru update, nak pergi sahur sikalang :3

Memory

- fucking annoying -

The thought of him,abruptly aggravating my head.
Explicit memories rushing through my mind.
I saw a picture, it was all painted in dark scarlet,
there was a deep black hole
in the middle of the painted wounded woman's body.
it was me, in agony.
I saw him, savoring my bleeding heart.
It reminds me..of a

memory,

Within seconds he came and utter the words "would you be mine?",

Within seconds he go away and never bother to say goodbye,

Everything changes within seconds.

Astoundingly, I felt nothing. I felt nothing for it.

I beseeched him to stay,but in abhorrence he gazed away.
I had been told to sacrifice things for a precious deal.
A memory.

Yes,
I was an imbecile.

Memory,
what a memory

A memoir it had be.

Murderer or mister of my heart, 
I know I'd rather meet the blow, 
Of my most unrelenting foe, 
Murmuring in mine ear a song, 
Once loved, alas! forgotten long, 
And on my brow I feel a kiss, 
That I would rather die than miss..


and there it is,
lay on the ground,
a picture of memory..

KUANTAN :DD

- fucking annoying -

okay, so my band, Lakes and Snadders, [ you can check us out here : http://www.facebook.com/lakesand ]
had an invitation to play at Shalien Studio, Taman Tas, Kuantan.
yeap, the event was on 25/6/11, that was last Saturday,
And I was tooooooooottaallleyhh excited bout itttttt.

Emir, Fazi, Khalaf ,Haikal and I went there by busss,
you know, if we went there by car,
a lil bit of high maintenance, the tolssss, the minyakks and all.. and what if there'll be an accident or shits like that. and what if we..,(saw ghost?!)
okay, not that you guys care bout it. x)

sooo we took the bus at 10.45 pm, SANI EXPRESS of course safety and COOOLLDDDD.
and we arrived at 4.30 a.m
fazi and khalaf, the most noisy people in that bus.. till this makcik grinning at them, she's angry I can tell, she scold them and said "Ni bukan tempat jamming, nak bising bising pergi lah tempat lain"
well, i was dozing at that time, but i still can hear that makcik and and those bitches babbling at each other. LOLERS.
and because of that, me and emir can't sleep properly..so the conclusion is, we did not sleep at all. ==
thanks to raredollz and amy kamarzaman and one of his friend, coz meeting us and took us to the studio.
there was so much excitement ahead of us despite of the knackeredness lol.

so, the event started at 2.30 something, and we are the fourth band to play.
first, we present the crowds with our new single "Now I claim your sun" and then SWING for the last time and then Clarity arises.

THIS WAS OUR 3RD GIG, and I never, ever expect that the crowds in Kuantan are likely to accept us
you know what i mean like, they fucking head banging to our songs ! and iii can't believe itttt
and this is our first time to NOT to play an OPENING to an event like this. so jyearghh
and i think WE enjoyed ittt, A LOT ! to meet new crowds, new bands new members and all.

FAZI NASHRIQ 

you see what i mean yaww

ahhh

the crowds are soo supportive we love you guysss

Diary for my ex and us :)

and after that, we stayed for a few bands, like V.S.T.M ,M.B.F and  i can't remember..
 some of the pictures were taken, there's lot of em, but you can see it in my album at facebook, of course :)

my hair's sucks, so i always use my hand to cover the suckiness haha

MYSPACE'S SHOT!

and yeah, some "selingan" before we rode the bus. XD hahaha
seriously, if we had the chance, we want to perform there again, but of course, with huge amount of benjamin in our hand and a CAR  :3
aaanddd one thing, I didnt shower yet. :P. HAHAHAHAHHA gooodddbyeee ya'll, will updating some more memorable events these pass few daysss coz I WANT TO TAKE MY EFFING SHOWER RIGHT NOW !! and thanks for reading this not-so-important-thing-to-you post :X till then buhbye